the big day off to chi-town is coming up and i am getting kinda excited. i this wont be the first trip i'd be taking alone but this might as well be because i don't have someone that would probably be hella interested in hearing about my trip. but yes, stop being sad buddy. its a vacation!!! haha.. ok now i have a lot of things to do today as far as errands. i feel super good about having all these things to do and not having the anxiety of worrying about someone else. i have been feeling this whole single thing but still have my moments. its going to be hard getting back on track as a single guy and i feel like i have so much to do. i have been on this whole tip of thinking on talking things out with my ex. i know she probably doesn't want to hear from me at all but i think i need to get some things off my chest before i move on with my life. whether what i have to say to her makes our relationship tolerable, mututal, or unacceptable, unpleasant, or even significant, i feel like i must tell her my feelings. the entire truth never hit her ears. i'm the bad guy no matter what. what i did, according to my friends, is what happens and i need to move on. this i just can't seem to move on. there have been many other women that have come through my life in the past couple months and i dont think its something i can handle. my body says go for it but my heart stops me from making stupid bad choices. but then again i think that sometimes these stupid bad choices aren't stupid to begin with. maybe they are just acts of fate, trying to put in the right direction with the right people. hmmm.. ok well i need to be running errands now i have a busy ass day off and only have so much strength and will power to do it all before i start work once again..
oo and this video made me smile the other day =)
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