dream..

it seems as if i have not been able to dream lately but last night i had one. usually i get 4 to 5 hours and last night i had prolly about 7 hours. before falling asleep all i could think about if how my ex if doing. i miss her o so dearly. in my dream it was me and her, and we were happy just spending time together. we end up having sex and it was just as i remember it. does this mean that our relationship was mainly about the sex? it was like every time we got together we were just messing around. when we first got together nearly 6 years ago, i had no intentions to do such things with this woman. knowing she was such a strong catholic beliver lead me to believe we would not be in such a situation. it was about 2 months we were in the relationship and she grabed my hand and guided it to her warm and waiting crotch. we were watching the lord of the rings and i remember it was like 10 15 minutes into it and she was just wanting it. that movie was hella long so i could not stop because that was exactly what i was after. but i realy liked her and wasn't forward, i was trying to be the gentleman. but wow from that moment we were like rabbits almost. we did a lot of kinky stuff and it was great. then after a while i was just doing it becaue she was feening. my drive diminished as our relationship progressed. don't get me wrong i love it but probably not as much as her. i pleasured her and made sure she enjoyed it, essentially i made sure she came first. and i guess when i continued to do that it became somewhat of a race to make pleasure =). but really i feel =( because i can no longer... hmm.. well yeah only in dreams.