friday night...

so as you can all see its friday night.. and what am i doing? staying in, drunk.. im so depressed and sad. im alone, nobody to kick it with, talk to or anything. all i have is this blog and the internet. wtf is wrong with me. i really shouldn't have drank but whatever. it triggers something in me to flow my emotions out much much better than when im sober. i read my blog when im sober, and im like,"wow, j-----, you express yourself very well when ur drunk!" hahaha.. anyways yeah this week has been a crazy one.. let's see, monday was filled with focus because tuesday was my first lecture exam which i hope i did well in. tuesday was cool. i took the test, no real suprise, it was difficult but fair. then i finished up my paper for speech and went to speech. after that i got a call from my homies to kick it at bj's. happy hour!! half off mini pizzas and we had beer! smashed is all i gotta say about that happy "hour". afterwards we went to mty place and drank more. wow, on a tuesday night. anyways it was all good because prior to walking into bj's, i called in sick to work! =) because of journey on wednesday night! so awesome. arnel pineda is my hero! he is such a great singer, better than steve perry! hahaha.. anyways yeah that night was my cousins bday. swung by her place, headed to sushi for dinner, then journey!! it was a good night. i left the concert drunk as hell. i ended up texting up my ex's friend, also my friend but not really. i just told her that i was drunk and that i still cared for my ex... bad idea, yes, but whatever. its done. thursday was unproductive as shit, i went to class, lab, oo had cadaver preveiw, then headed home for an unproductive ass time on my couch. napping, watching tv, blah blah bs bs.. anyways i woke at like 8 and got a call from my homie. went to his place and kicked it, drank, blah blah... friday, work, dinner, drank and here i am drunk.. a significant part of this week was probably my dream i had last night. i was drunk, in the rear of my old car. it was a crx, hatchback with a chick i went to grade school then college with (fine as hell might i add) and i just chillin as my homeboy drove us home. as he was driving us home, ended up feeling up on her leg. i made my way up to her wet pussy, i was hella horny and so was she. as i started to grope her warm crotch, she took her panties off, a red thong. i started to use my tongue starting from in the inner thighs working my way up to her wet pussy. my finger was exploring her and she was just enjoying my presence. my tongue moved up to her clit and she was just quivering with pleasure. her smooth brown skin was like an ocean of chocolate and i wanted eat it all up. she tasted so good. but enough about that i should knock out and hope she's there again! haha.. goodngiht world.

although i'm alone, i still stand...