better.. much better..

so the thoughts of her have really subsided the past month or so. i don't really think about her as much as anymore. i used to just constantly become consumed with thinking about what she was doing for the entire day sometimes. now i have my priorities in place. well for the most part i do. im still pretty lazy but you know what i mean. i thought i would blog about the past week and the roller coaster it has been for me. so lets begin with last week. i had a lab report due last friday it literally took up all my time and i was just stressing out of my mind. so after the valentines day weekend i got right on it. we were in the library studying, writing up the lab it just did not come together as fast as i thought it would. it was nearly a photofinish. That friday after all the craziness came more craziness. so friday i had to work. that morning i did my online quiz for physiology, emailed the lab, and went straight to work. that night i really didn't sleep all that much, as far as i remember at least. anyways, after that day of work, i came home rested my head for a minute and looked at the clock. earlier that day i had made plans to meet up with my cousin in san jose. so i really didn't wanna go alone so i brought one of my good homegirls. i went from daly city to san leandro then to downtown san jose. we partied it up at capers loft aka loft bar and bistro. it was a coo place and as the night progressed i was like, wow hella azns.. haha.. anyways i attempted to dance with some ladies and it was somewhat successful. danced with her for a moment and it was not much else after that. i was able to get to know my homegirl alot more and vice versa. we are totally in a quarter-life crisis and it is just killing. we have no more significant others, grind all day at work.. it was the same shit, different day kinda deal. any ways this whole single thing was a new ballpark and i was finally more comfortable to approach the opposite sex. anyways the night was ok and we had decided to go home. we drove from sj to la pinata in san leandro (i think) and pigged out. what a journey that night was turning out to be. the night ended with a good nights rest of 2 hours for me. i had work at 6 am. yeah im crazy.. so that day was absolute hell and it just kicked my ass all over the place. as soon as my shift ended i went home and naped for like 5 hours. woke up, round 2. there was a going away party for another homegirl of mine. she is super random and she just decided to up and move to NY, queens to be exact. her vacation back in january went from a couple day trip to a month's long stay. during that time she was able to find a job, which is great to hear because of her unsuccess here in the bay area. anyways i woke up at like 9pmish and i was out and about once again in the city this time. we were kicking at this spot called bruno's in the mission. it was a real cool crowd. real mixed, not like the night before. i saw a bunch of folks and just partied it up as much we could. ooo and that night consisted of bacon wrapped hot dogs! delish.. aright so following the bar we headed to sparky's a diner off market in the castro area. it was pretty good. never been there and hit the spot. so i dropped off my friend afterwards and headed home for another tiny nap. 6am comes around and im back to work. that day was actually much better than the day before. worked it, went home and just remembered that i agreed to do a double on monday. wow, so slept woke up at 430am, worked at 6 and didnt end up leaving until 830pm. it was a doozy i tell you. i was tired. i also got an email from one of my coworkers about our plans to do mexico. looks like it wont happen, but anyways hope we do something fun. i know we will. but the reason she wont be able to make it is that her mom is having a hysterectomy. serious stuff.. so its totally understandable. family first. tuesday rolls arond, school, and mardi gras!! out to poleng. we had a couple beers before heading in and we had a pretty good time. them bam! for real a real freaking bam! chick fight. two more words. cocktail dresses.. wow. it was brutal. those girls were all over each other and hair and earings and shoes all over the place. wednesday rolls around. work, exahaustion, research paper. oo man i hate my procrastination. damn i also get a text from my home boy, laid off. it came as a big ass shock because it is happening. this recession is just affecting everyone in everyway possible. my mom too, someone on her floor got the boot too. its scary beacause the lady leaving was at the company longer than my mom and my mom has been there over 25 years. =/ thursday, school, so tiring. i cooked me some brown rice, chicken breast and boiled up some veggies. real health nut stuff. felt pretty good afterwards. didnt feel like gross at all and i was full. it was kinda nice. anyways, i hit the book after that. then the time flew. dinner with coworkers, gym, and here i am.. so tired i need sleep. i really do. as you can see this roller coaster of my life is filled with so many highs and lows. it just is so tiring. im still young and able to handle this lifestyle.