As I write this, I am listening to the album: So Far Gone by Drake. Shit is good..
Anyways as you can tell from the title I am kinda in a rut with the ladies. I feel as if every possible relationship I have been attempting to get into, it just doesn't work. I mean relationship following the one relationship that I have under my belt already.
In a previous post, that I may have marked private, I was developing something with "E". Well I think I again got my hopes up with her. I mean I always have my hopes up with women but just don't follow through for fear I will loose them altogether as a friend, acquaintance, anything to me really. Anyways, I have been there via text for her. Making her laugh, giving her support, love.. as a friend.. She is a complicated women as in all the women that I seem to get involved with. Anyways, I had dinner with her last night. Same ole shit kinda stuff we usually talk about. But this time we meet, I get this we should be friends kinda feeling. She walks through the door. I see her, I try and give her a hug and just end up patting her back.. Yeah.. I tried a simple gesture of care and respect but it seems as if she just wants our relationship to be at a distance. Oh well, I still care for her and will be what I have been for her. I just gotta stop with bringing my hopes up. With all women.. So yeah.
Another kinda heart breaker, is this chick "k" who is a chick I expressed some interest in and had nothing in return. Anyways, she's leaving our establishment and on a scandalous note in my eyes. I have been told at her going away party this past tuesday, she was holding hands with a recently married man, another co worker. Although his wifey is technically not here, its not right with the gestures she is giving. I mean I gave up on trying to hook up with her a while ago but whatevers..
The "scorpio" is a feisty one. She has a lot of baggage but all I gotta say about her is she tells me that I seems to always hit her up at and right times, like when she's down and stuff.. So I will just continue what I do with her. She is just down..
"C" is also a down chick but learned quickly that she is also one to play games, like mind games. So yeah, I think I'm over shit like that.
Kinda ready to get in the dating DATING scene. All I got are friends.. Things are just feeling hopeless right now.. But will get better I hope.
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