month full of problems..

wow its been a while since i blogged but what matters is that i am blogging now.

where do i begin with:

1. so there is this girl i have been dating and i think i have to quit playing myself and let her go. i have already started distancing myself from her but there are some complicated things in the mix of this relationship. so the first problem is that i have told her that i don't want a relationship. following that statement she goes and tells me that she wants one. after several weeks of knowing these are the feelings that we have for each other, we continue to hang out. i think it wont be long before a heart is broken...

2. so its just been a couple of hours since i saw my ex-girlfriend. don't know where to begin with this one...

too much is going on in my head with this one..


*the question that arises:
should i be alone or make things happen??