She loves me, she loves me not..

Well I have to say that once again my mind is playing tricks on me. I mean I really like E but its not gonna happen. She is such an awesome person, I mean she is attractive, smart, funny, and is able to put up with my lameness. Haha.. Anyways, I feel as if I have been texting her a lot and its cool but I just don't know what to think about it. Ok I am obviously overthinking once again instead of studying.. Yeah, I got a final tomorrow.
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Still not ready..

Well its been a super long time since I started this whole blog thing and I still don't think I'm ready to see other people. It's not that I'm shy or not confident enough to approach women. Its the fact that I still have not gotten over my ex girlfriend. I still care, I still love.. I know that I broke up with her and said that I wanted to see other people, but it has been hard to just do that.

When I approach a woman, the thing that sticks in my mind is if this is the kind of woman that I wanna start a relationship with. I don't think so much like the typical guy, the whole, getting into pants thing. I am a relationship kinda person, not so much a date kinda person.

I find that kind of a fault of mine. So many people are out there and want to date. I want that. I wanna have that same desire to date, but I just want to be in a relationship. Hmm.. Well I guess that's what people my age have to find out. I have to find out what I want and things will hopefully follow.
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had to share..

http://eargasmix.blogspot.com/2009/02/80s-roundup.html

float..

pretty wings - maxwell

pretty wings..

There is a new maxwell song out and its called pretty wings. Its basically a song of love and regret. I came across it after my crazy weekend in Las Vegas.

Well to kinda begin this weekend of insanity, wednesday marked pay day. I kinda went nuts at macy's wednesday morning furiously looking for clothes to wear for the weekend. I spent about $350 there and walked out with a pair of Joe jeans. The original price of the jeans were $179 but was able to take them off macy's hands for about $70. I tried them on and was like, hmmm.. Skinny jeans kinda. They were labeled slim boot cut but damn these designers and their accommodation for skinny asses. No love for the booty! Haha.. Anyways after my lovely time at macy's, I rushed into the city to work. Damn, I hella worked til midnight that night. After my shift, I rushed home to pack for my flight thursday afternoon. Omg, I was up til like 2:30am freaking packing all my shit into a small ass carry on. It was so difficult because I hella wanted to pack hella shit. Anyways after my energy drank wore off, I knocked out to prepare for my lovely day at school.

Thursday morning comes so fast and I head out to class. Luckily I had prepared myself for class that day because I had a presentation for nutrition. Killed it btw.. Headed off to physiology, smashed through that. Then I booked it back home for last minute checks on my stuff for Vegas. Phew, got everything. My dad picks me up and drops me off at SFO. I take southwest to LV and see some folks I kinda know on my flight. Get picked up my old roommate in his most disappointing rental. Jeep Patriot, crap car with squeaky ass brakes and uncleaned interior was our ride for the day. We head out to his aunt's and rest up a little. I settle in and change into shorts. Super hot there, like in the 80's. Then we head out to the Smith's which is like there Safeway to pick up some Grey Goose, Monster energy, fruits, cereal and milk, and water. After all that we decided we were hungry. Let's go to the strip! Haha.. So head out to the Palazo, where neither me or my old roomie have never been. Hella nice is all I gotta say. We walk around just browsing the restaurants and surprisingly spot our other old roommate! It was actually her birthday celebration and she invited us along for the festivities. We chop it up for a little and just head out on the strip in search of food. We end up at a random diner at some casino. Eh.. After that we just ended up walking around, buying drinks and gambling. I get pretty tossed and my old roomie was the kinda babysitter, making sure I don't fight anybody or something. I end up just losing some cash at the roulette tables and we end up back at his aunt's. I knock out on and un inflated aerobed because my drunk ass couldn't figure the damn thing out. I get up after a few uncomfortable hours later and head to the couch for some real sleep. Haha..

So TGIF, with no work was wonderful. We decided to go to the outlets. Not just any outlets either, the Las Vegas premium outlets =). Damn I dropped hella money buying up jeans at Lucky Brand Jeans, t-shirts at American Apparel and Volcom, and shoes at Vans. We had such a great time shopping we nearly forgot about checking into our hotel! Haha.. After a couple last minute purchases at Coach and LeSportSac, we head out to Treasure Island to get that room of ours. Beautiful view of the strip from out room. Anyways we kinda settle in and ready ourselves for the night out on the town. We actually forget some stuff back at his aunt's so we head out back in that direction for dinner and a couple items, like the goose and my camera. Had some awesome sushi and headed back to the TI. We get spiffied up and get our drank on. And boy did I drink a lot. After several shots in the room, we head to Planet Hollywood for our night in at Prive. It was quite a night, as far as I can remember. Robin Thicke was hosting and it was fairly packed. I guess I end up buying plenty to drink because after several purchases I black out. I wake up the next day - a couple hundred bucks in my wallet.. But wow, I did have fun. Supposedly I kept falling down in the club, danced with a bunch of chicks (as well as chickens and apparently a panda), got kicked out for sleeping, and end up kicked outta planet hollywood for vomitting. As I was being coaxed outta the hotel, the bouncers apparently nearly broke my fingers! Eeee.. But whatevers.. I can still use all of them.

Saturday.. Aftermath, hung over. Not much happened. Kinda just laid in the dark in the hotel room admiring the pool view and music. Round 2 begins, first dinner at Dal Toro in the Venetian or Palazo, one of those. Figured we'd save some money so we go shopping as Pacman and Hitman go toe to toe. Anyways, Hatton gets KO'd at the end of the 2nd. Wow, glad we didn't pay to see that. Anyways we just end up at Tao at the Venetian, Jay-Z's after the fight party. Pretty nice place. Kinda chill, just drinking and dancing a little. Me and my old roomie leave for some more trouble. Oh yeah, the stripclub. We take a taxi to Saphirre which was the place we went last time we were in Vegas and my old roomie was too tired to go that last time. So this time we were so ready, at like 3am. Still packed at that time and wow we had a good time. All I gotta say is strippers are nice people =)..

Sunday, we check out of TI, have some brunch at the Bellagio and I randomly find out my flight has been delayed. I'm like ok that's coo, its not til tomorrow.. Not!! Wow, so I nearly miss my flight but it was cool because it was delayed. Make a couple trips to gather some of my things and make our way to the airport. So I kinda was nonchalant about this whole thing and just take my time. I attempt to check in, and I get this weird ass ticket so whatevers. I go through security and walk to my gate. The last of the passengers get on and I am literally the last person to board. So bad.. Get to SFO after a gazillion delays and dealt with the weirdest of people to sit next to in the plane. Oh how I miss the fog.. Bum it for the rest of the sunday and recover from all the craziness of the weekend.

Monday.. I'm off and just chill, then bam a phone call to work. Sure I'll work for a couple hours. Tired from that, and recover some more.

Tuesday, school.. Nap.. And eat terribly. I have had so much junk food the past 24 hours. I've had Taco Bell (to celebrate cinco de mayo =) not really mexican but eh), buttered popcorn and a bunch of soda.. So bad. And now instead of doing my homework I just sit in front for my computer and watch youtube vids..

Whata week right. I'm pooped..

And in between all this I still think of that woman. She haunts me and I just seem to not mind it at all..

Pretty wings.
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